Sometimes when I close my eyes I can see myself as a child again. Vividly, I can remember certain days and specific times. Like a nightmare during the day and able to open my eyes and come out of it, I don’t. I feel the abuse, I hear the put downs, I feel the loneliness of not fitting in. If I keep my eyes closed long enough I can make it through to a teenager. I can see my past mistakes of not doing well in school, the feeling that people have given up on me, loneliness again of not fitting in, I see my parents splitting, I see my mother abused and it takes me back again as a child remembering we both were abused and thinking it was my fault. With eyes still closed I can see opportunities missed as a young adult. Set backs, confusion and frustration. All of these things play in my head! They used to play in any situation. Mostly negative situations of failures or disappointments.
Now when they play back in my head it’s because I believe that it is important to remember what you came from and to remind yourself you have control now and can move forward on a different path and journey. That you are not bound by the past but yet able to BE Free for the future.
Many times we take what we were or what we went through and we bring it to our current situations. We remember our bad relationships and think in our current situation that we just have bad luck or the wrong people are attracted to us. When in reality we are the ones attracted to the wrongs ones because we hold ourselves in the capacity of what we are used to with bad relationships. This example is the same for career and friendship and life in general.
Remember your past for what it used to be and know that today is not the same and if it is, you are the only one who is able to change it. BE Free and look to the future. Even if you can only see as far as later today! Live and BE Free in today….. and know that even yesterday is the past!
BElieve, BE Free, BE YOUtiful…BE!